Show Me How YOU feel

I am a fool
I should not be given the ability to feel so much, to talk so much and I should not have been given a heart.
I feel as if the more I talk the more I push you away and the faster you will go.

Maybe I should stop blogging about my love life all together, maybe I should stop talking about every emotion that I feel throughout my being, but if I don’t talk about how I feel I will go crazy.
I’ve made you too important too fast and that scares you, lately everything I’ve said has probably scared you.
To tell you the truth I’m scared to fall in love, I’m scared to fall in love with you because there is no turning back from that once I love, I love, I love with every bit and piece of me. It scares me because I won’t want anyone else but you. I could loose myself again or you could break my heart but I’ve already said that won’t happen so why am I afraid? I want you too much already and it could destroy me. Your love for me could never destroy me it’s my feelings for you when I fall in love with you that could do it.

You have made such an impact on me in such a short time. You went from best guy friend to best guy friend I have a huge crush on in less than a month. We can talk about anything, I like that. Clearly we want the same things right now that’s always good. I feel like I’m doing so many of the wrong things because you won’t tell me how you feel. I want to know how you feel. If you can’t tell me then show me, show me how you feel about me through action.

I WANT IT FIXED

I kind of feel like crying 

It might just kill me if he leaves

no actually, it probably will kill me 

You know?

this guy is pretty much the first guy I’ve ever had a strong connection with 

this is a mutual thing too, at least it better be 

I’m not a fan of feeling rejection ever

and I have asked guys out before 

and gotten rejected from that 

but this is just 

It makes me feel sick

ya know?

the one person who said they wouldn’t hurt me 

pretty much did

I mean I know stuff like this happens all the time 

but I’m really not used to this and I’d rather not get used to being rejected by someone I care about 

I’m probably not even helping either

I’m probably just making him hate me more or loose interest 

I guess this is just one thing that I really can’t fix 

its up to him to fix it 

I’m just being a bitch about it 

I JUST WANT IT FIXED NOW

I WANT TO STOP BEING FRUSTRATED 

I WANT TO FUCKING KNOW THAT YOU CARE ABOUT ME 

PLEASE 

AND

THANK 

YOU 

NOW COME HERE 

AND 

KISS ME 

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