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Still Too Young To Fail, Too Scared To Sail Away

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I’m not sure why but my heart hurts a little bit 

like there is a small tare in it?

I’m not sure if I feel sadness

it doesn’t feel like it’s my sadness 

it feels like someone else’s heart break 

this isn’t my heartbreak 

it’s a very intense feeling in the space between my chest 

maybe I am a bit sad 

but that heartache I felt before wasn’t mine 

I wonder whose it was..

I think I’m scared that I’m going to loose someone again 

yeah, that’s what makes me sad 

I can’t have people leaving me anymore 

and of course the tears come 

not tides of tears though

just the waves 

I just can’t have people leaving me anymore 

I’m not gonna let my heart feel that loss 

not gonna let it destroy me like it has so many times before 

I wanna say “Don’t leave me” 

I wanna be able to know that they stay 

But this someone is staying so I shouldn’t be tearing up 

You know what I haven’t had in a long time? 

A call 

I haven’t talked to anyone on the phone for like an hour since 7th grade 

and I haven’t been out to coffee in a long time 

I haven’t gone hiking or swam in a lake 

I haven’t gone to the mall which I probably should do soon

I haven’t dressed up for myself in a while 

I’ve gone on a few dates 

nothing special 

deep breath 

Damn I need a hug