Be Okay, Only Thinking of Me

Head aching
Feet shaking
Stomach quaking
Letting go
Of the past
Is the hardest
Thing to do
What hurts even more
Is that
I don’t know
If I love you
We don’t speak
Much anymore
And I’m done
Begging you
To stay
At my door
When I’m miles away
Your across another shore
You live in winter
I live in the fall
You don’t even answer
When I call
Or I speak of importance
You aren’t here
And you said that you
Never would be
So please
Let go of me
I don’t want anymore
Pain
You see
He’s different
Then you
And maybe
Someday
Ill learn if he will stay
Everything is going to be okay
Time to just go of the flow
Only thinking of me

Hidden Truth

What scars?

all I have 

are fresh wounds 

because I’m always the stupid one 

standing naked 

right in front of you 

hoping for once 

I will not 

be judged 

by the size of my feet 

I may not walk the same path as you 

but I have tried 

it’s always been about YOU 

for me 

no one else 

I’m done begging 

I am quite the catch 

and you will never see 

you never will

Try being the first to take off your clothes 

and stand in front of the one you 

feel true love for 

exposed 

then try putting on their shirt 

mine wouldn’t fit you 

but yours fit mine 

see this is what 

hearts are like 

we end up

finding one 

that fits ours 

no matter the arguments 

and you were mine 

but now 

no one is 

if I turn into a 

stone 

cold 

bitch 

I’m blaming you 

you should have been smarter 

and known 

what happens 

when a good girl 

loves you