I’ve been unable to think about what to write
I’ve had no inspiration
and I’ve been doing so much
and thinking about so much
I’m really sorry
I haven’t written any poems much lately
I’ve been confused about things
and just ugh
I want all the answers now
but my mind is too frazzled
I still have one paper to write
Bit’s of art homework to do
and to study for my drivers test
I want my long hair back
I desire a lot of things right now
and I know some i’ll get
and other’s I’ll have to wait for
but I’d really like to go on a date
not just with anyone
with someone who I feel a connection with
my mom keeps telling me to try out a dating site
but I’m not into that kind of stuff
I guess I still have things to do
So I might as well get it done
I’d still really like a tattoo too
my head just wont shut up about relationships
and love of course
I swear this longing is like a..
a sickness
no one is answering me
I just don’t understand it
I feel like there are so many things wrong with me
but how can there be when I’ve changed so much already?
I don’t get it
I don’t get why I feel like this
why do I feel like this?
I’m sad because of some things
I’m confused
am I stupid for feeling the way I’ve felt about some people?
do I make bad decisions?
I don’t know what I want right now
maybe that’s the problem
I know what I want in a guy though
Someone trust worthy
loyal
who thinks about me when he can
passionate
weird
always answers back
cares an awful lot about me
tall
fit
treats me with respect
and in bed like a queen
takes me out to cool places
he see’s a future with me
has beautiful eyes
amazing hair
and hopefully facial hair of some sort
I like hairy so he better be hairy
I like my men creative and intelligent also
he can be creative like sports creative or
drawing, painting, music, my kind of creative
I dislike being treated like I’m “stupid”
he can be smarter then me but I don’t need him point it out to me
or any of my flaws
doesn’t make excuses, accepts responsibility
can say sorry
cry’s
I like nerdy guys too
he’s gotta like most of the things I do
but I dislike it when people always agree with me
so we can’t have too much in common
but if he doesn’t like camping and the outdoors we are not going to work
no hater of nature
is going to me loving me
he doesn’t have to be as obsessed with it as I am
but pretty close would be good
I am not begging, pleading or praying for this
I’m just announcing my criteria for a real man
this isn’t bullshit
this isn’t some fairytale
this is real
this isn’t me getting my hopes up
this is me putting myself out there
telling you who I think my kind of guy is
he isn’t a dream guy
or a prince in shining armor
I want someone real
I’m not bashing the guys I’ve been with
or the men who care for me now
I just would like some answers
as to how
rebelliousoceannymph 