Stupid Questions….

I don’t think I’m ever going to be able to stop admiring you the way I do 

or ever stop wanting to be with you 

is that good or bad? 

I mean I see no reason for us not to be together sometime in the future

but should I hope for that?

do you want me to hope for that? or no? 

I accept your friendship really I do

but I’m gonna always want to be more to you 

I don’t know if your ever gonna want that with me 

I hope maybe one day you would

or if your trying to just build a foundation 

I don’t know that 

but I don’t ever want to hear about any of the girls your in love with anymore 

I’m not gonna let you hurt me like that anymore 

I just can’t fucking do it 

no matter how much I want to know about whatever current girl your madly in love with 

who isn’t me 

the jealousy is just too much for me 

I’d give anything to be with someone like you someday 

I mean anything 

I envy any woman that’s been lucky enough to kiss your lips 

and be called your “love” 

I mean have you ever thought about me? 

ever? 

even late at night? 

what do they have that I don’t? 

man I gotta stop asking such stupid questions 

I guess what I mean is 

one day 

I would like to be just a little bit more to you 

maybe if I’m lucky someday you’ll want to be more to me 

too