In Time You Shall Be Mine

Do you think of me?
In your future
Or now as a lover
Share more then just
Words
Show me your worlds
Ill take you to my favorite place
If you’ll look deep into my eyes
Please just kiss me
Make me your own
I can’t stand
To be here
Waiting
Alone

Thinking Of You

A lovers
Stare
Is worth
More
Then air
Your
blue eyes
Hold a gaze
With mine
We have
So much
Time
Do you mind
If I make
A few rhymes?
You are
Two or three
Years older
But that doesn’t matter
Is it love you feel?
Is any of this really real?
To be honest
I’ve never been able
To make a man
Smile and blush
Just as much
As I have with you
I’d be pleased if you
Asked me out
Soon

Prove It

What am I to you?
Just a canvas
made of
beautiful colors
and
a “pretty face”?
You think
you can
stare at me
As if I was
simply hung up
in an art gallery?
do your thoughts
fill themselves up
with images
of myself without clothes?
and your penis deep inside me?
or perhaps it is
the thought of me having
your children
and a diamond sweetly
on my finger?
Is it that
you cannot have me
and my gorgeous soul
and sensational body
all as your own?
You cannot
say that I am
your “girlfriend”
Is it killing you inside?
To see me each day
and be too scared
to say what you feel
and to take me out?
You do not talk to me
Why is that?
Everyone knows
just who you are
gazing at.
I ask you sir
To try your best
To get to know
me and all that I am
You will be surprised.
I am quite
a challenge
dear gentleman
But I do
Promise you
much joy

I See You Shiver With Antici………..pation

Who are you?

and why have you chosen to say you love me?

I forget voices too easily but a face I can remember 

so why can I not match your voice to your face? 

have I seen you recently is that why I cannot place it?

or are you merely someone from my past begging to be in my life again?

your calls have been getting louder 

then some nights they simply turn into a whisper

you’re a living person, I know you are 

I know you can hear me when I sing 

and I know you can feel my heartbeat 

because as creepy as this sounds 

I can feel yours too

I’ve asked you time and time again

to just expose yourself to me 

and you really aren’t doing the best job at it 

and it’s just making me feel even more confused since I don’t know 

who you are voice wise 

a few nights ago I did think I knew 

but now I’m not so sure 

I would greatly appreciate it 

if you let me know somehow 

thank you 

so that we can just figure all of this out 

it’s like whatever my heart says 

my head is questioning it 

and I don’t know why 

it shouldn’t be this hard 

 

Questions For The Future Lover

Do you ever think about her?

Do you think of how green her eyes get when the sun hits them just right? and how sometimes it really doesn’t bug her? how it just happens to make her shine like nothing you’ve ever seen before?

Do you ever think about her hair? how long and brown it is? and the way it just lay over her pillow when she slept with you that night? how much she looked like a goddess? the way her hair smelled when she whipped it onto your face by accident when you kissed her?

Do you think of her lips? and how perfectly rosey they are? they way that they taste? what about her voice? how she sounds when she answer’s the phone around 2 am? when she sings in the shower? when she flirts with you? 

How about how silly she can be? don’t you ever think about her random dancing around the house? when she bursts out into song? when she laughs at the simplest words like “balls” or when someone says a word differently then they usually do? 

Do you ever think of her body? her small bare breasts and her not so hairy vagina? the shape of her ass? her long legs? the small of her back? do you ever think of her in her underwear or lingerie? Do you ever think of her masturbating? all that moaning she does?

How about her reading a book? watching a movie? running? going for a walk? swimming in her bikini? swimming without clothes? Do you ever think what her voice sounds like when she says your name? 

Do you ever think about how big of a loss it would be if you lost her? that aching feeling you’d get in your heart that really never would go away? don’t deny it, you’d miss her more then anyone wouldn’t you? you’d probably think of her more then you do now wouldn’t you? 

You stay up late and think of her all night don’t you? you picture what it’s like to hold her? to love her even? you see her don’t you? you very well who she is? how much she can care about people? how she can be insecure at times but even so still loves seeing herself in the mirror? you see that it’s hard for her to sleep alone at night? how no ones really protected her? 

You see that she isn’t all that different then you? you see how she struggles to stay sane? you see that opening up to others is hard for her but once she knows someone care’s she see’s it? you see that she’s really done pushing others away now? you see how much other people have put her down for being different then them? 

You see how intelligent she is? how hard it is to find someone who she can actually talk to without sounded like she’s from a different planet? how beautiful she truly is inside and out? do you see that? you think she’s pretty with her glasses don’t you? you like the fact that unlike other girls she doesn’t wear much makeup? 

Your drawn to the fact that she adores everyone even those who have disrespected her? how big of a heart she has? her imagination? do you see how much she’s had to save herself? how different she is now? how about how important she want’s to be to you? do you think that maybe one day you would want to be that to her too? 

Do you ever think about what it would be like to tell her you love her? how much she drives you crazy? how extremely beautiful she is? You want her all to yourself don’t you? it kills you with jealousy to see her with someone else doesn’t it? to even think of her with someone else makes you sick to your stomach? 

You adore how obsessed with water and love she is don’t you? you want to give her what she want’s? you want to make her so happy don’t you? to see that beautiful happy smile on her pale face? 

Would you ever want to spent the rest of your life with her? Did you hear her call? do you hear her call? will you call her? will you spend time with her? 

Do you want your family to meet her? give her your last name? hear her moan your name when you have sex with her? a lot of sex? will you wait for her if she waits for you? will you wait anyway? will you hold her when your both naked? be there when she cry’s and needs help? 

Will you smother her with kisses? marry her? trust her? talk to her all night on the phone? go camping with her? have sex in a tent? swim together? do romantic things? will you not call her names? will you kiss her in the rain? will you always stay? will you tell her “I’ll never leave you”?  will you love her just as much as she loves you maybe more? 

will you let her cook food for you? listen to her play her music? admire her artwork? tell her everything about you? tell her your memories? your favorite things? even when your away will your heart always belong to her? will you watch her when she’s in the shower? admire her when she walks around the house naked? compliment her? drive her places? let her drive you places? 

Will you make promises to her and keep them? will you work hard to keep us together? Do you want children with her? a baby girl or a boy maybe? will you be a father to the children you have together? will you do what she says? will you take care of her? 

AUTHOR’S NOTE: These questions aren’t geared towards anyone, I am not pointing fingers, these are simply meaningful questions that have gone threw my head today. I thought it would be inspirational to write them all down so that I wouldn’t forget and maybe these would help anyone who feels they are having trouble with their love life or relationship, it could help them to think things threw. 

My love goes out to all of you. Have a marvelous Tuesday, I’ll be sure to write a story tomorrow. 

PEACE! 

XOX

 

 

Ocean Eyes

I don’t want to stop writing 

if I do 

I’m most likely 

better off dead

my head aches 

and I still feel that shiver up my spine

my hair is untidy 

and my eyes are rather red 

I wont let myself get out of bed 

not yet 

not when I can hardly walk 

without falling 

not yet

I wish you didn’t go 

it really hurt my soul

and I think you know 

we never had love 

but we did have time 

and you took that away 

just as you left 

and with you 

some part of me went too

because I gave it to you 

I don’t want it back

you keep it 

it’s yours 

I thought you were different 

I thought we had a connection

I thought that since you cheated on her before 

that you’d realize she wasn’t for you 

you made me feel like 

I was the only one 

you felt close to 

you lied to me 

didn’t you?

you weren’t all that drunk that night 

and you meant what you said 

you always have 

and you always will

you broke her heart once 

I figured you could do it again

but you chose mine 

and you chose to waste my time 

you don’t cheat on someone you love 

that’s not real at all 

even while drunk

it’s not excuse to hurt some random girl 

I don’t kiss people like I kissed you 

that kind of stuff doesn’t happen unless I care 

and by the look on your face 

you knew that feeling was there 

so go ahead 

leave 

I’m sure she cheated on you 

more then you did on her

girls can lie all they want 

you can do better then her

men care more about sex then love 

and your too scared to find out 

with me 

I won’t forgive you 

unless you turn back now 

and apologize 

I don’t care if you come back 

just to give me a hug 

like a friend 

or kiss me 

like a lover 

it was my fault for trusting 

and believing 

you were over

please don’t mention my name to her 

don’t speak of our intimacy

even if in the end

you do choose me

I have no hope left

for anything

my spirit is broken

it’s going to take a lot

to put me back together  

I’m sorry you lied 

and wont accept the truth

I’m sorry I believed in you 

you will think of me 

when you kiss her 

that I know is true 

you’ll wish it was me 

and not her 

soon

your just like any other guy 

your scared you wont find what you’ve got with her 

again 

what a god damn lie 

well 

I guess 

this is 

goodbye 

 

Wish I Knew

Dear Future Lover 

I can feel you, your presence is here with me even if you may not be. 

Can you feel me too? do you hear my voice like I hear yours? 

I can hear you whisper my name, speaking of sweet nothings and what makes you love me 

but are you just a fantasy made up in my mind? 

are am I meant to see you in time?

my heart is calling to you and your face

when will you come to me? when will I meet you? 

do you look like the others or are you different? 

I wish I knew 

I think I have feelings for you 

though I haven’t met you yet 

and you don’t know me 

or maybe you do 

I wish I knew 

are your eyes blue? 

or are they like his greenish too?

your different then those who have hurt me 

I know you probably never will do that 

could my search be over? 

I can still hear you 

“Zoe, I love you” 

you continue to say 

god, I really hope you stay 

I wish I knew