Thinking Of You

A lovers
Stare
Is worth
More
Then air
Your
blue eyes
Hold a gaze
With mine
We have
So much
Time
Do you mind
If I make
A few rhymes?
You are
Two or three
Years older
But that doesn’t matter
Is it love you feel?
Is any of this really real?
To be honest
I’ve never been able
To make a man
Smile and blush
Just as much
As I have with you
I’d be pleased if you
Asked me out
Soon

Be Your Lady

Do I
Make it
Obvious
Enough
For you?
I honestly
Can’t stop
Gazing at you
I can’t
I’m afraid ill miss
Seeing the best
Part of you
Your such a sweet guy
Your gorgeous
Blonde hair tied up tight
I have such thoughts of you
Sexual thoughts
Future thoughts
Conversation thoughts
Kiss me
Please
I don’t care
If smoking is a habit
For you
Ill care for you
Just as you are
I don’t care if you do
Or do not play guitar
Just kiss me
Build me a place
In your heart
Show me who you are
I haven’t thought
Or liked anyone
Else
Since you looked at me
That way
Eyes shining
I do
Question
If I’m falling
In love with you
But that’s so fast
If its true
I hope your my last
I really do
Whenever
Someone
Says your name
I can’t stop
Smiling
And even better
I make you laugh
As well as blush
Maybe I’ll stay up
Until two
Just thinking of you
I could do it
God damn it
Just kiss me
I cannot stand it
By all means
Make away with my heart
Like a bandit!
Take me already
Ill be your lady!

Mr. Indecisive

He gazes
At her
With passion
And a love
For all that
She is
As the music
Plays in class
He must decide
Which woman
He cares for
More
Shall it be
His lady whom
He holds
At night
Or the woman
He’s loved
For such a long
Time?

You Do

You love me
I know you do
Otherwise
You would
Gaze the way
That you do
As if
I’m magic
And of great
Need to you
Like I’m
Everything to you
Soon it will
Be so
Just want you
To know

One Class

He spoke
My name today
A man I thought
Had no interest
But his
Eyes remained
On me
As if to
Hold me
Toe pointing
In my direction
All I want
Is him
With my
Reflection
Together
We are perfection
If I hadn’t been
So nervous
But then again
I will let it happen

11:50 AM

Everyone
Gazes
At her
But he
Ceases
To believe
She
Exists

Begin

He gazed at her
She gazed at him
Which shows
That
They sense
To begin

Our Eyes

Eyes 

that bore into my soul

like I’m the only girl

those are what get me 

Eyes 

that bare no lies 

but the brightness 

in his heart 

that cannot tare us apart 

Eyes 

when the color of the sky 

or the grass nearby 

draw me to

their side 

when they pass on by

Eyes 

underneath glasses 

or with nothing 

covering the

glimmer 

cast by the sun 

that is never done 

Eyes 

when you look at me 

I often feel the need to sing 

but only to you guys 

Eyes 

that wont give up on me 

that have very well 

seen me cry 

but reuse to look away 

knowing 

I’m shy 

Eyes 

that I cannot say

“I love you”

no matter how much they want to

Eyes

that represent me and you

so I’m not sure of who to chose 

since I can’t have two of you

but one just doesn’t seem to leave 

and I can’t shake him off 

since he wont leave 

or deceive me 

so I will be seeing him again

soon

and his eyes will look at me 

just like before 

Please 

Mother Nature 

don’t 

let him 

walk out the door 

RED

Red
The color on my lips
and toes, the blood on my fingers
when I had to let you go
Red
For the passion of my soul
and anger I no longer carry inside
Red
His pride, that it may be pushed aside to see this beautiful woman who has always been by his side
Red
For all the lies I have been told when someone promised they would be here to hold me and stay
Red
She is what was inside me but now lays beside me, the young girl of the past who was made of glass now died in the grass
Red
For luck, somedays I have more then enough of it, others, there seem to be obstacles in the way but I pull through anyway
Red
Roses, everyone adores them but I cannot bring myself to love them like they do, there are more ways to express love I suppose
Red
The color of the sky, the sunset when I lay on the beach next to that amazing guy who would not bat an eye but kept his gaze so firmly on my face and just the way I am, accepted for it all in the form of a hug
Red
My face when I blush whenever I imagine his voice when I read his texts and other messages
Red
My sunburn after the best day of my life ended, the warmth of my skin and that look on his face when I had to go
Red
The sailboat on the lake water that day and that night that I continued to say “I gotta have it”
Red
We all carry the same colored heart in our chests
Red
Deep red is my passionate want for what I want
Red
Falling in love
Red
Better be enough
Red
Stay here with me
and
never let me go
Red
the color of his soul
Red
the mother of the old
Red
don’t be so cold
Red
I sure hope you know

I’m In The Wind, Crossed Fingers For The Win

I found out I’ve got three birth marks that are perfectly aligned like Orion’s Belt today 

they lay on my back in line with my bone 

I searched for the meaning of them 

it is said that it represents a “line of pearls” 

which is a sign of royalty and god’s 

which makes me think 

that maybe being human

we are all just gods and goddess 

searching for our fate 

I looked into the cards today 

they say that after a period of struggle 

there will be joy and reunion and magic 

those are very good signs 

for me in this situation 

I made my choice 

of saying what I said 

and it all came from my heart 

I will not take any of it back 

not for my sorry soul 

he deserves to hear the truth 

of my feelings 

and my thoughts 

and why I question everything all of the time 

and sometimes more then I should 

the earth has told me that a change is coming through 

so maybe he will see why 

and all of the meanings of my words 

I hope with all my heart that he will realize 

how much he truly means to me 

and why I dare not let him go

I’d give anything to see him 

anything to kiss those lips of his again 

to hold him and not let go 

I’ve felt such sadness 

and I’ve missed him

I do miss him 

more then my soul could say 

I’ve never cared about anyone like I care for him

he must know now 

he must see it through my eyes 

I wish to see him again

It may sound naive 

but I feel as if 

as the days have passed by our separation

that he could come back

I was confused before about my feelings for him

but I know now

and I’m not willing to let them fade

nor am I willing to let us give up

I see that there is fear 

I can understand that

my personality is hard to figure out and can sometimes be a bit too eccentric 

but I know that he cares 

I can feel it now more then I ever could before

maybe now he feels it too

I promise 

Mother Nature 

please give me this chance with him 

I will not leave his side 

I will not scare him like before 

nor will I say terrible things 

I can see him 

I know what he feels now 

it cannot all be gone 

he must know it is not gone 

this is not finished and done with 

it has only just begun 

please give us this chance 

my unborn child would be so grateful

I could tell him what she’s been saying

we can be a family

please let him be my family

he owns so much of my heart

his hands own my body

and his lips own my eyes

I dare not beg you

but I cannot deny what I feel

or reject what my soul is experiencing

my eyes have been filled with tears today

as they have been weary with lack of sleep

please let him come to me this once

let me sleep in his arms

and talk with him all night

and kiss his lips

let me speak to him with truth and affection

let him listen

let him speak too

and then let there be silence and kisses

I will not ask for more then that

but if love making happens

let it be

just give him back to me please

I wanna see him sometime soon

maybe this weekend

no more rejection okay

I honestly cannot take this misunderstanding

anymore

it sucks the energy out of me  

that is why it has taken me so long to gain understanding 

it’s not gone though

the connection isn’t gone 

it feels very strong to me 

maybe its because I’m more spiritual then him 

but you get the idea

it’s not gone because…

there is a big difference between electronics and real life

so when we see each other again he will feel it all over again 

and maybe it’ll be stronger then before 

he will be here 

please 

let him come back

I can’t loose him 

this connection we’ve got 

it means as much to me as he does 

but he means more 

when we are together 

he always finds a way to make me smile 

and his kisses are full truth

I don’t need him to tell me that I’m beautiful

I don’t think I can live without him

or his kisses or his smile

let him come back

we deserve each other

and this connection

don’t let us

disappear