That asshole left
Again
When
All she
Wanted
Was to be
His friend
See
The thing is
He didn’t
Listen
So
She was
Relieved
To say
Goodbye
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Honey I’m Home
She knows herself
To be beautiful
Her pure heart
Is much to behold
It’s time
To put away
The monsters
And
Find
Your own
Way
Home
Ocean Eyes
I don’t want to stop writing
if I do
I’m most likely
better off dead
my head aches
and I still feel that shiver up my spine
my hair is untidy
and my eyes are rather red
I wont let myself get out of bed
not yet
not when I can hardly walk
without falling
not yet
I wish you didn’t go
it really hurt my soul
and I think you know
we never had love
but we did have time
and you took that away
just as you left
and with you
some part of me went too
because I gave it to you
I don’t want it back
you keep it
it’s yours
I thought you were different
I thought we had a connection
I thought that since you cheated on her before
that you’d realize she wasn’t for you
you made me feel like
I was the only one
you felt close to
you lied to me
didn’t you?
you weren’t all that drunk that night
and you meant what you said
you always have
and you always will
you broke her heart once
I figured you could do it again
but you chose mine
and you chose to waste my time
you don’t cheat on someone you love
that’s not real at all
even while drunk
it’s not excuse to hurt some random girl
I don’t kiss people like I kissed you
that kind of stuff doesn’t happen unless I care
and by the look on your face
you knew that feeling was there
so go ahead
leave
I’m sure she cheated on you
more then you did on her
girls can lie all they want
you can do better then her
men care more about sex then love
and your too scared to find out
with me
I won’t forgive you
unless you turn back now
and apologize
I don’t care if you come back
just to give me a hug
like a friend
or kiss me
like a lover
it was my fault for trusting
and believing
you were over
please don’t mention my name to her
don’t speak of our intimacy
even if in the end
you do choose me
I have no hope left
for anything
my spirit is broken
it’s going to take a lot
to put me back together
I’m sorry you lied
and wont accept the truth
I’m sorry I believed in you
you will think of me
when you kiss her
that I know is true
you’ll wish it was me
and not her
soon
your just like any other guy
your scared you wont find what you’ve got with her
again
what a god damn lie
well
I guess
this is
goodbye
The Phone Call.
HER: I’m done with us, leave me alone
HIM :Your serious?
HER: I’m dead serious, I don’t want you anymore, I don’t want to hear your voice or see your face. I don’t give a fuck about what you do or who you are with. I don’t think about you, I blocked you from messaging purposely, I deleted my sound cloud account, I unsubscribed to you on YouTube, I unfollowed your blogs, Leave me alone.
HIM: You still want me don’t you? that’s why your saying what your saying, you still like me and care about me.
HER: (The tone in her voice changed, she almost sounded sorry for him) NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. I AM DONE WITH US. You are nothing to me but a relic from my past hun and I can’t afford to let you hurt my heart again.You just don’t deserve me. I’m afraid that you never will.
HIM: I’m sorry about all of the pain that I caused you and…
HER: It wasn’t just pain that you caused, you practically made me suffer.. I never want to feel that ever again
HIM: I’m so sorry, I’m so so so sorry, I’m sorry baby
HER: I’m not your baby, sorry won’t be able to fix this and I don’t think anything can. I don’t want to be friends with someone who sucked the life out of my heart, you made me hurt for a very long time and you made it happen again and again
HIM: I can’t loose you.. what can I do?
HER: nothing, just do nothing. I’m not crawling back to you or begging for anything. I want nothing from you and I want you to leave me alone. All you did was tell me what you thought was wrong with me and exaggerated every piece of me.
HIM: (pause) I know.. I’m sorry.. I’m an asshole we have established that
HER: why is it always about you? I waited for YOU. I FUCKING WAITED. I WAITED FOR YOU LONGER THEN I EVER HAVE WAITED FOR ANYONE. I’M DONE WAITING. I’M DONE BEING WITH GUYS WHO ARE JUST SCARED LITTLE BOYS INSIDE, NOT ONCE DID YOU EVER THINK ABOUT ME IN THE END. NOT ONCE.
HIM: I know.. I’m sorry, I fucked up, I really did
HER: I’ve already forgiven you. I just want nothing to do with you. Not now. I want someone who actually cares.
HIM: but I do care.
HER: Really about what? why do you still care about me?
HIM: I never stopped caring about you..
HER: Don’t you dare lie to me like that, I’ve had my father lie to me my whole life, I don’t need it from you.
HIM: I’m not lying this time
HER: Don’t lie to me ever..
HIM: I wont. I promise.
HER: You promised you would stay and that never happened
HIM: (silence)
HER: No promises
HIM: But..
HER: Look, I’ve gotta go. The guy I like is coming over in ten minutes.
HIM: But..
HER: Goodbye _____ _____ ______ ! Someday we can be friends but right now I don’t want anything to do with you, I loved you once but you wouldn’t let me. So goodbye. Have a nice life, I have moved on.
HIM: I love you..
HER: (Hung up the phone)
HIM: (Thinking about her and what he will never have)
I Wont Be Far From Where You Are if Ever You Should Call, You Meant More To Me Then Anyone I Ever Loved At All
You know
he is really stupid to not see the greatness in me
I was really stupid to not see the greatness in myself
but he
he fucked up
he really fucked up
I may not be able to get over him now
but I will at some point
even if it takes
a long time
when he left I didn’t cry
not very much
at least not over him
just over the baby
he really just thinks of himself
it’s like he stopped having a big crush on me
and starting having feelings for himself
how does that happen?
did him making sweet love to me
just happen to boost up his confidence?
or could he have been like that all along?
Why do I do that?
I fall for guys who have so much confidence or a big ego
don’t get me wrong, I can have that problem too but it’s only because I’ve thought of others my whole life and I thought it was about time to put myself first
I mean it would be pretty unfair to call me some sort of name while I’m just trying to live
so it may be unfair to call him one
I guess everything was just “bad timing” AGAIN
which forces me to think that his intention wasn’t just to make me happy
it was more for his selfish needs too
it’s always been like that
so hopefully this next time
someone will actually find me who thinks more of
my needs
one day
or sometime soon
this bad shit can’t hang around for long
I’m not sure of what to call him
he isn’t much of an ex
since kisses only happened a few times
it was more technology
which means
we weren’t given much of a chance
well that sucks
I had his baby who was unborn beore she was born
it does seem like he is just another asshole who screwed me over
but he is too nice to be an asshole
but he does need an attitude adjustment
but then again
who doesn’t?
it’s just the negativity that bugs me
that is why I am letting him go
for good this time
I’m sorry if my posts lately have been a bit disappointing to you all
obviously a whole lot has happened
and recently I’ve been trying my best to get out of the house
so that just adds more stress
but I’ve been writing everyday
I’ve been trying to write everyday
once or twice
writing poetry when inspired
you know the usual
I’ve decided that I’ll cook more now a days
and clean more obviously
just getting prepared to live by myself
and since I gave away so many clothes
I kind of don’t have much
I’d really like to know
who the hell is thinking about me 24/7 now
I swear!
my nose continues to feel itchy
so I constantly rub it!
or wrinkle it
or scratch it
and I’ve sneezed a few
dozen times too
like seriously!!
who is the fool that thinks of me all the time?
I’d really like to find out