If I asked you
“Do you think I’m beautiful?”
what would you say?
would you say
“Your pretty but there are other people prettier then you” ?
would you say
“Your alright” ?
would you compare me to a summer day?
or stars in the night?
would you call me average?
or would you say nothing at all?
People see what they think is beautiful
we all just see what we want
but some of us can look past that
for instance
I believe everyone is beautiful in their own way
my family never taught me that
a lot of what I know
I found out myself
I’ve had negative
and positive views on my looks
and I’ve been called fake before
but everything that anyone else has ever said to me
about my own beauty is just an opinion
and sometimes it’s a lie
to be honest
it takes a lot
for my ears to believe what is said
I’m not entirely sure why that is
I’ve never really felt home
anywhere
and I’m pretty sure I’ve told you all enough
about that
my hearts been broken
many times
and
I’m not sure if I want it to be broken again
but that’s a risk I’m going to take
I’ve sort of lost sight of the image of someone ever really
loving me
I know that’s probably not the best thing
and I do have some hope, I never could live without hope
even just a little bit
nothings ever like the movies
and nothings ever like it seems
or how it’s suppose to be
you know
and I can say I’m pretty
or I’m ugly
but your just going to
judge me like everyone else
or make up some illusion that I’m perfect
when I’m just searching for a place to find home
or a person who knows how lucky they are just to hold me and accept me for who I am
it’s not easy being me at all
it’s been really hard
I’ve cried a lot
and I’ve laughed a lot
and I’ve felt things and done things
I never thought possible
but somehow there is still that something missing
there’s that place in my heart that still hurts
and I’m not sure if it will ever leave me
it’s not from some dumbass who broke my heart
its much more then that
and believe me
I welcome you with open arms
but I don’t expect you to stay
not for me
leave when you want
do what you want
I’m just looking for my place
before I have to leave it
rebelliousoceannymph 