be okay | rebelliousoceannymph

I am not perfect

under any circumstances

unless you happen to be in love with me

or like me a lot you will think that I am perfect

or if your the little kids that I babysit that just think that I am the coolest human being

to ever walk the face of the planet

and I have told them a million times that if I have kids, they better be as brilliant as them because those four kids are the sweetest things and so smart too, I’ve been their nanny for about.. two years now, yeah two years, god damn I love those kids!!

okay, so what was I talking about?

right, um, perfection

nobody is perfect

but everyone is beautiful

some perceive themselves as

more glorious then others

while the rest hide their brilliance

I guess I haven’t found my brilliance till about a year ago

sometimes it can be hard to get a grip on who you are

this is the first time I’ve ever liked someone very much

and not lost myself in the process

nor have I lost the image of his face

before, I would always

forget

the face of the man

who I was to love/adore

I’m not sure if I’m in love now

its been a few years since I was actually in love

I’m sure it will happen sometime

and I know it will be him

I’ll fall in love with him

it makes me nervous just bringing it up

so change of subject

what is up with this whole fangirling thing?

lately it seems like a lot of people, mainly girls

are going nuts

over bands

One Direction

Maroon 5

Justin Bieber

etc… etc… etc…

I’m not really into the whole

“Fan Girling” thing

anymore

and I’m not entirely sure if I have ever really been into it..

maybe a few times

but I just see no point in wasting my energy into that type of thing

but I have fallen madly in love with

AEROSMITH

like so in love

I’ve decided my favorite album

Music From Another Dimension

and

Big One’s

I so badly want a poster

and shirt

and sweatshirt

and shirt dress..

hahaha

I can’t believe I’m saying this

but

I think I love them more then The Beatles

like so much more

there’s this song that made me just fall so damn hard

called

Lover Alot

“Is that your girl in a lily white dress
How come she’s so f*ing passive-agress
I hear you say with your adorable tongue
And that you just don’t care how especially yeah
While the night is still young
Still you raise your imagination
Do that ration, generation, single patience
Contamination, suffocation

Don’t you know that she loves you a lot

Why don’t you know, don’t you know what you got
I even know that she loves you a lot
Why don’t you know, don’t you know that she’s hot
Why don’t you know that she loves you a lot
Ah don’t you know that she loves you a lot
Why don’t you know, don’t you know what you got
I even know that she loves you a lot
I know you do”

So fucking beautiful!!!!!!!!!!

I mean, I loved rock music before

I would listen to 93 X all the time

I still do once and a while

Music has rescued me

so many times

Tomorrow I’m hopefully going to go shopping

for art materials

for this painting I’ve been dying to create!

I need some more dresses, like badly

(totally random! 😛 )

I don’t usually wear dresses in the winter

I wear them all the time in the summer

it’s kind of what makes me classy haha

can a classy badass exist? haha

because if so then most likely I am one

tho I’m not into labels

at all

I think you all know that

I have been itching my nose

and sneezing multiple time for three days now

someone is obviously putting a lot of thought into me

and lately its been a bit hard to get to sleep

my mind always goes back to him

yes him, him, the now him,

damn I probably shouldn’t have told you that

but since my mind

refuses to let me forget

which is so fucking good

like thank god

I think I might die if I forget his face

I can remember our time together like it was yesterday

that’s never happened before

ever

I’m pretty sure I said that once or twice already

but usually after around two weeks

or a week

I’d forget their face

and how they made me feel

this is so different

everything about him is clearly implanted in my brain

every damn thing

from the way he gazes at me

to the tips of his fingers

to his calves and his toes

I probably shouldn’t be saying all of this here

but who have I got to share this with?

don’t get me wrong

I do talk about him

frequently

to my best friend and sister

but that’s it

and I never give away the personal stuff

that really doesn’t belong here

besides my emotions

and writing helps a lot

when I’m freakin out

I have been maturing a lot this week

so much that my body is changing

and it freaked me out a bit

because

I kind of thought I was pregnant

but I most likely

am not

there is this movie

its a bit of a chick flick

and there is this girl named Tibby

and there is this part that I really like that

reminds me of myself

she has this boyfriend Brian

who says this one thing

“You need to have a little faith Tibby, not everyone you love is going to leave you”

and she replies with

“I know that now”

it takes a lot

for someone who is so used to

people leaving

people just walking out

when you give them so much of you

and your heart to them

it scares you

I was scared before

but I’m not now

since I know everything is going to work out

or be okay

rebelliousoceannymph

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