Pep Talk

You can’t act like everyone is going to hurt you 

It doesn’t matter where you live or where your from and who you are 

I wont let you act like that 

and I think you know as well as I 

that we are done playing the victim here 

everyone has a story 

everyone has a song 

not everything you do is wrong 

mistakes are meant to be created 

and wrongs are always right 

it’s not your looks that matter 

or how fucking smart you are 

or what car you drive 

or if you still live with your parents or not 

none of that shit matters 

your inner beauty is within you 

and yes it can often show on the outside 

but that’s only if you let it 

I know your going to think I’m incredibly stupid for saying this but 

everyone knows hurt 

everyone feels it 

not just you 

you may feel it more then others 

but that doesn’t make you crazy 

you have a gigantic heart 

and you don’t need some fucking guy to show that 

yes, you love everyone 

and I know you used to want that sort of love so badly 

but honey you don’t need it that badly 

its all within you! 

everything your looking for is within you 

and if by chance some beautiful kind generous loving man seems to 

walk into your life with a big bunch of flowers and a smile on his face 

you go for it 

you go for it lady and love him with all your heart 

and hope to god that he doesn’t smash your heart to pieces 

like all the rest of the fuckers have! 

you hear me? 

you understand me? 

I will not let you drown again 

you have so much shit to do 

don’t waste any of your precious time on a guy who doesn’t care enough 

don’t waste any time on a guy 

just do what you need to do 

and do what you love 

you haven’t been camping in four years 

go find someone to go camping with and enjoy yourself 

paint as much as you breath 

no one knows you better then you 

sure go buy some nice clothes 

start taking pictures 

love every minute 

do yoga 

your on your way out of the house 

I swear! you are so close to just leaving 

promise me you’ll always let go of the things and people 

that are not good for you and that don’t make you happy 

promise okay? 

do everything for yourself 

and please stop thinking about what others think of you 

because it doesn’t matter at all 

it really doesn’t 

so stop 

and if someone is stupid and tells you that you are selfish 

for doing what you love 

you have every right to give them the finger 

got it? 

good 

glad we had this talk 

 

 

Togetherness.

His phone rang in his pocket, just as he was on his way to the lake. How unfortunate he thought but he took it out anyway and answered. 

“Hey” said a familiar voice on the other line, it was her, he had been waiting for her call, it was odd for him to miss someone so much while he was away, he tried his best not to be around people but for her, he could always make an exception.

“Oh hiya!” he replied nervously. Usually she was the one who was nervous, her mouth would dry up and her mind would be all over the place but this time, it was him feeling this way. She sounded just as beautiful as she always did.

“Where are you?” she asked, he felt this kind of a question was quite odd.

“I’m by the lake, why do you ask?” he spoke in a concerned tone. 

“Well I’m coming to pick you up”  she said confidently. 

She soon arrived in her emerald green mini cooper, spotting him. “Get in” she yelled cheerfully and slightly laughing. This startled him but he got in just as she said. 

“What are we doing?” he asked, he hadn’t seen her in a while so this was interesting. When he looked at her he saw memory’s of them naked in her bed, laughing and smiling and kissing. Such a heaven, really. She was so beautiful, he couldn’t help but stare, she had become much more elegant and kind since they had been together, he enjoyed that. 

They drove for around two to three hours, having conversations about life and what they did while apart, it was comforting for the both of them. You could feel the spark of their connection was just as strong as ever. 

She parked the car, gave him a blindfold and said “You gotta put this on, it’s a surprise”  with a bit of a giggle. 

“I’m not one for surprises” he said with the shake of his head. 

“I promise you’ll like this one” she grind that cheeky grin that he loved so much, he wanted so badly to just put his fingers through her dark brown hair, looking into those green-brown eyes and kiss her just like he had before, but he didn’t. He put the blindfold on and let her lead the way. 

He couldn’t see anything, obviously, but as he felt his feet move, the touch of her hand in his, he knew he was going to be okay. 

He heard his footsteps and hers, then the sound of a door opening, they must have reached the destination. He walked a little further then found himself sitting on something comfy, then his wrists were being tied to something.. What the hell? he thought with a chuckle, damn, she is quite the mastermind. 

“I’ll be right back” she said sweetly. 

Twenty minutes later, music was playing, it was a type of relaxation music. He felt her hands behind his head, untying the blindfold. She slowly took it off. Then he saw her face, pale, thin with those pretty cheekbones, she had red lipstick on, hardly any makeup like usual but as he looked down to check her out…

He saw she was wearing a maroon lace corset, it fit her just beautifully, with a matching thong and everything, “Holy fuck..” he said in shock, he knew she was beautiful but this, this was amazing. 

She cupped her hands around his face and kissed him, hard, putting so much passion into this kiss, she had just missed him too much. He couldn’t touch her, since he was tied up, but how he longed too, just like old times. 

She was sitting on him now, humming to the music, kissing parts of his body, stripping him till he was completely exposed. She liked it much more when they were together this way, nothing to hide, just complete nakedness and whispers instead of words. 

She kissed him everywhere, then down to his penis which she sucked for quite a long time until he was satisfied, leaving most of the satisfaction in her mouth and on her chest. She cleaned herself off then started taking off what she had on. 

Now they were both exposed. She put him inside her and let out a small groan of satisfaction. “Awh” is what she said. He gazed at her now, gazed with determination, she was going to be his.

She unbound his hands gradually so he could put his hands wherever he wanted now and he did. They began to move, together, in a way that neither of them ever had before, she was completely satisfied, after all he could give her an orgasm without even touching her, just the sight of him made her completely turned on, she loved him that much.

He realized he had loved her too. They began to move fast and faster, she would moan and groan over and over again, it was sexual euphoria, their bodies just fit so well together, so perfectly together.

 

They would not finish, they would go on and on, having sex over and over again, no stress in their body’s at all. It was just satisfaction after satisfaction and that little thing called true love. Complete with kisses everywhere, hands wandering, faces wandering bodies, tongues, position after position, no words.  

They had waited for this and it had been so much more, so completely worth it.

Day’s later, he would finally express himself to her. After her days of waiting he would give her the ring to prove it. She would cry those tears he knew so well. Those tears of joy. 

They were finally together. 

Naked in The Night

“If gods are meant to leave goddesses why haven’t you left me yet?” she asked him as they bathed in the lake, her legs shining in the sunlight, illuminating her every part of her. He gazed at her, unable to take his eyes off of the naked beauty laying next to him now that they were on the beach. He cared so much for her, you could always see it in his eyes. 

“I guess I never had a reason to stay until now” he said this very truthfully, then again a rare god like him always spoke the truth, it was interesting how well they seemed to fit together, they always laughed and smiled. 

She just gazed at him and smiled. He brought her closer to him and they kissed. This kiss was unlike any other they had shared before, it seemed to bring out the passion in them both, soon they were no longer laying on the beach but entwining their bodies together. 

She knew he was going to leave her after this night, destined to see each other over a long period of time, but he’d be back. He always came back. 

If I Could Make Days Last Forever If Words Could Make Wishes Come true I’d Save Every Day Like a Treasure and Then, Again, I Would Spend Them With You

Maybe I am just kidding myself.. but my vision’s aren’t ever completely wrong, so I don’t understand why it’s happening like this. 

I’m fucking sick of having people say that they care and then they just leave. I thought he was different, I thought he did care and he was going to stay. God! I go through all of this shit just to be with him and then he wants to leave. I’d go with him but I’m pretty sure he doesn’t want that. I’d totally just pack up and go with him too if I knew how.. but I have to stay here for three more years then I can go where I please.

You know I really thought this time I wouldn’t have to cry over anything or anyone… but I guess that isn’t the case. 

Do you know how much I have done for him? How many insults and assumptions I was accused of? How all I did was help him with anything he needed help with? I was here when he needed a friend and someone to talk to, I was here when he cried, I remember the night pretty fucking well.. 

I wanna yell at him or slap him and just say FUCK YOU! then push him away.. but I’m not going to do that no matter how fucking angry I get. I am sad, it’s pretty fucking obvious.. I feel like my heart has just been ripped violently out of my chest. 

What am I going to do without him? WHAT THE FUCK AM I GOING TO DO? I’ve always thought of him as one of my best friends, no one understands me like he does and no one understands him like I do. No one makes me laugh like he does and no one makes him laugh and smile like I do. I made him feel again, he was so numb and now he feels again and I’m practically being abandoned. 

He could possibly be the love of my life and I’m getting ditched again. He was suppose to stay somehow or another and fall in love with me. It isn’t fair. This isn’t fair. This fucking sucks. Don’t ever fucking promise to me that your going to stay when you plan on leaving the next day. DON’T. 

Don’t ever convince me that you care when you really don’t care all that much. Way to break the trust. Way to fucking break the trust. Well just to let YOU KNOW you are never going to find another woman like me in your entire life. Your never going to have what we have with another woman, no one will make you laugh like I do or make you smile or make you feel wanted like I do. Just to let you know.

So by all means go and don’t ever come back if you insist on breaking my heart AGAIN and taking every once of trust and respect I have for you. I can be as selfish as I want to right now, not once has anyone ever thought of me. I thought that you were the one person on this earth who would care more about me then himself. That’s what I thought. 

I can’t believe I’m questioning if you care.. 

You really wanna leave? is that what you want? Did you ever even think about being with me? about what we could be? do you even care at all how this is affecting me? 

There is always some truth behind every “I don’t know” so go ahead and tell me everything because I deserve to hear it before you go. Every feeling that you have felt with me, every thought in your mind when we were spending time together, every image in your head, you owe me that much if you plan on leaving me behind. 

Now I’m going to stop thinking about this shit because it might not even happen, you might end up coming back each summer and I would hate to fuck up what I have with you but I guess you don’t seem to care.. 

You know I could have left you before you left me, I could have fucking done that but I didn’t did I? I FUCKING STAYED!! I FUCKING STAYED AND CARED ABOUT YOU THIS ENTIRE TIME and I don’t think I’m ever going to stop..