Mother Nature Stop Being a Jerk

is having a good time 

really too much to ask for mother nature huh?

do you insist on messing up a wonderful day with an extremely attractive guy?

I have all these fucking questions in my head now 

because of you 

will I ever see him again?

I don’t know 

do I sound like a complete nut case to him?

I don’t know 

did he think I was sexy?

I don’t know 

did I make it awkward?

hopefully not 

it didn’t feel awkward 

I would like to get tipsy 

and have a fucking good time 

please let that happen

if he’s not into me 

fine 

just as long as I know 

before hand 

I was so fucking excited for this 

I put lipgloss on 

and everything 

I shaved 

everything 

it better damn well happen 

next week

I don’t like disappointment

especially in the woman

who fucking controls the weather

you make this happen

this is the second time

my plans had to be twisted around

and changed

I have every right to be pissed at you

 

I’d really like to hang out with this guy

you gotta understand that  

 

 

Untitled Story In The Woods

“Why do you use poetry to speak and words to seduce?” he asked her puzzled by the sad look in her eyes, she wasn’t like the others, she revealed too much from the center of her heart and her universe and sang only when truly happy other then that she kept her mouth shut and he eyes wide open which made him see her differently then just a girl. 

“I speak of the wind and the trees and what is in front of me but my heart is very hard to find” she answered with a sly smile. Her hair was never put up, it lay across her bare chest and body, she never wore clothes and found herself wandering in the woods more then the city. 

“If I ask you what you are will you answer honestly?” he spoke as he began to get closer to her, she wasn’t used to closeness or people.. she spent her time wandering for someone or something that would love her, being born from the earth.. mother nature can’t exactly give hugs or kisses, you don’t believe in a god or talk of t.v shows and music, negativity makes your body sick even though your heart carry’s sadness. 

She nodded her head as if to tell him but not really. Then she took a deep breath and made some odd gestures with her hands, the sky above turned purple and the clouds went grey, it began to rain. Her long hair became darker, tears ran down her cheeks, ocean tears.. then she spoke in a sing-song voice..

“I am the water, the air and the trees, I am not the earth and I am not fully human, I was born with two hearts and not one, I feel everything and see what cannot be seen, my body is made of the ocean and only as beautiful as others see it. My brain is from a different time and my eyes create life in front of me. I am spirit and I am soul, I speak the truth in everything, I heal humans and I break them, my voice can be heard from miles away” 

As she said this, the rain began to stop and nothing but droplets were left on her pale skin, flowers grew around her and butterflies surrounded them. It was like a dream he had wandered into. 

She wasn’t finished yet. 

“I am the granddaughter of the moon and the sun, humans cannot understand me my voice is too ancient or them to hear. I am the only daughter of Mother Nature, born of fire and water, love and fear, you name it and that is what I am, I am the child of the light. Darkness is my enemy, the demons scare me..that is all I can tell you” 

He didn’t know what to say. He felt as if he was talking to an angel or a goddess and she seemed to reveal that much. He felt a fool for asking when for some reason deep inside he had already known.. 

“You try to hard you know..”

“Why do say that?” she asked. 

“you shouldn’t have to worry about those other humans.. I think your too good for them”

“Then why are you here?” she asked him as she put one hand into the freshwater lake. 

He couldn’t figure out how to answer that. Where to start? how to say it? he scratched his head pretty hard on this one. He couldn’t say “I don’t know” that would ust make him sound like he didn’t care about her.. that’s it..

“I’m here because I care about you and I’ve been searching just as you have for someone to stay and understand” he said honestly. 

“Your not going to stay though..” she bit her bottom lip, “Your going to end up leaving like everyone else has or falling for a pixie..” 

He felt like laughing.. “A pixie? Nahhh, a pixie isn’t as cool as you, daughter of Mother Nature” 

She found herself blushing “She’s my father too” she responded. 

They laughed until they cried. They cried until they kissed and then they drifted off to sleep. 

Blame A Change Of Mind A Seismic Shift in Times

It seems like the more he refuses to let me in the worse the weather gets and the more Mother Nature weeps for us to begin again. I feel no need to cry, though from time to time I shall, things would be so different you know. I know wishing wont help but right now it’s the best I can do. I wish he’d stop acting like he doesn’t care and realize how much he misses me not being there. Our little girl would be so happy if he and I got together, friendship isn’t what I want though and I know friendship isn’t enough for me right now, I deserve more then that with him. I went to the bating cages today and hit a few pitches, put out a lot of my anger towards what has been going on. I know deep down somewhere deep inside is body he cares quite a lot, it can just be easier to fake it and say he doesn’t. Rain is the start of a new, so maybe it can be a sign to him and myself that things are different now, I’d give anything to just be together, romantically envolved, a couple, I mean you name it. This time could be a time for him to not think about himself and start thinking about someone else, his daughter or her mother. I really couldn’t say. I just hope he will have the strength someday to take us back. Maybe all isn’t lost, maybe there is one more chance to try, just maybe