“Happy Valentines Day”
He said
As he put a pretty
Flower in her hand
She blushed
Turning a bright red
“What is this my friend?”
“Is it not obvious”
He replied gingerly
“I want to be your boyfriend”
He whispered within
Her hopeless ears
She never thought
Anyone would ever
Desire such a foolish thing
Of her
But before
She could
Detest
Her views on what
Day it was
And expand
Her bitterness
The man
Embraced her
Then gave her
A big fat juicy kiss
The humans around them
Didn’t fret or laugh
They simply
Smiled
With a large amount
Of joy
The boy then
Explained himself
Asking her out
Though each had school
And not much time
To themselves
Romance
Was on the line
And for once
She deserved
An oddball in
Tin foil
To just
Take her someplace
Special
And love her up
Let her know
She is
Enough
Tag Archives: pretty
Planet Earth
You think it’s easy being pretty?
wait wait wait wait wait
STOP
do you hear yourself?
there are no ugly people in this world
do not put yourself in that kind of place girl
it’s the heart and soul that are as beautiful as you make them
I, myself, have a pure heart
that’s why I’ve gotten hurt
so much
when you see beauty
in everyone
and everything
it’s easy to be blinded
but only fools
hurt those who love most
that’s why
all assholes will
end up alone
so you wanna know
what this “pretty face”
has been through?
rape
abuse
complete happiness
utter chaos
woman like me
are easily notices
but humans
are stupid
and quick to judge
they put a stereotype on you
before you
can budge
or they will say something
to put you down
because that’s all they know how
when jealousy kicks in
each human
has something to learn
otherwise we would all
crash and burn
I’m telling you this
because I know you’re smart
and I know
that you don’t need
someone else to complete you
you just need
to love yourself
humans think they know everything
yet they know
nothing about life
I learn from others
when I learn about others
to just get their perspective
or story
I often show empathy
but there is one thing
I never
let anyone
know
everything
Broken Glass (poem)
Why do we accept scars?
even the ones that aren’t ares?
it’s as if we let our hearts
find perfection
not only in our own reflection
but in the puddle
of someone else
people tell us what to do
thinking that they can help you
but all it does it jumble up
the thoughts in your head
and the feelings in your heart
then one day
someone is smart enough
to hit your target
like a dart
whizzing past
in the blink of an eye
and all you can do is smile
it doesn’t take a long while
to some you may be made of magic
to others it’s like your some kind of maggot
they leave before it could begin
lives full of lies
and deception
all for that one thing
to those that stay
you mean more to them
each day
so don’t you dare
say you’re not
beautiful
let go of those
who have hurt you
take time to dance in the moonlight
you’ll see how relaxing life can be
without fights
and when you meet someone
who sees greatness in you
accept it
let it be
for everyone is sensational
as are you
and me
so I beg you
be careful
about whose heart you break
it’s okay if they are fake
but if you notice
how real they are
and what they feel
your a dumbass
and I hope you step on shards of glass
Fishes.
She was born a fish
a child of water
and the sea
men came from
far and from wide
but none could tame
her beast inside
till one day
she met a man
who claimed
he once was a fish
he was quite tan
from the sun
and
very much
liked to run
their time
together grew short
but oh how she loved him so
soon he would be living in the cold
would he miss her?
would he think of her?
would he love her
from far away?
she really
could not say
but if he wanted her
why couldn’t he stay?
though she couldn’t ask that of him
his love for the cold
seemed to cling more to his heart
then her heart of pure gold
she had always known
that he was the one for her
they knew each other far too well
before meeting
when he kissed her
and listened to her heart beating
that was when she knew
her true love
grew
his past
didn’t matter to her
nor did his mistakes
her adored her beautiful face
they were fish
you see
brought together
by the ocean
and sea
For You (a poem)
I could write
a poem
for you
it’s true
I could
would you like me to?
alright I will
Lets see
where would I start?
I adore the way
you gaze at me
when I’m not looking in your direction
your eyes sort of
bring out the best of my reflection
the color of your eyes reminds me
of some of those rocks in the sand
so elegant and almost like diamonds
I like to picture your hands on me
as well as the taste of your lips
I like to wonder what it would feel like
running my small fingers threw your hair
the feeling of your facial hair on my lips
You’d probably give me goosebumps
You probably know this
but I love your face
You shine
like no other man
I have seen face to face
you put butterflies in my stomach
and warmth in my heart
whenever your name and face come across my mind
I just feel like singing all the time
that is how much joy you bring to my soul
If I could
I would try and swallow you whole
so that you could stay
holding onto my heart
night after night
I don’t need sunshine
when you are by my side
you shine brighter
then every star in the sky
I know that may not be saying much
but to me it’s a whole damn lot
The way that I speak sometimes
may not make sense to you
often times it’s as if I’m in my own
world
of wishes
and
magic
where nothing can harm a hair on my head
but if I could
I’d let you take every strand
and you’d still see me
for who I am
I’m not a goddess
nor am I an angel
or a queen
Sometimes
I won’t be able to save you
when you fall
and hurt your knees
but I promise
I’ll be there to stop the bleeding
I’ll let you say my name with curse words
and insults
I’ll try my best to help you up from the fall
You wont always be the first thing on my mind
but you’ll live inside my head somewhere
speaking my name in hushed tones
that even a princess would be jealous
I’m not allowed to love you yet
but I can care for you
more then my own self
and I hope that maybe
one day you can do the same
but I’m not asking
for anything
though I crave
your lips
I will not ask
nor will I worship you
I will treat you as an equal
but always with respect
and kindness
I’m honestly
not something
you should ever
miss out on
I may repeat words sometimes
but that’s just how it’s done
please don’t run
away
I’d really really really
like you to stay
I know I can be a bit intense
and tend to climb slowly over the fence
but I hope you’ll be right there next to me
leaving your fingerprints
on what was once
painted shiny and new
put all over me
our fingerprints
we two
I hope one day
our hands are entwined
and
I hope
you never
let go
of mine
You Put Your Arms Around Me And I’m Home
Am I ugly?
part of me feels like I am
or I can be
I’ve got scars you know
physical and emotional
does that make me ugly?
I was told once by a guy who I didn’t know
that my personality is
and I quote
“shit”
but I guess you can’t always believe
what people say
especially if it’s something like that
and he was just like the rest of them
wanting me
all for my fucking body
why do some people think
that
that’s all I’m good for
is a good fuck
hell some of my
no longer guy friends
thought that
why do people suspect things like that?
that’s like
pretty much
labeling me as
a stereotype
and
I’m pretty much done
with experimenting
sexual things
right now
I just want one person
one
I don’t care if its crazy
it is what I want
people can
call me
whatever
they want
I don’t give a fuck
you don’t know me
so calling me
things that may
“hurt”
or
“disturb”
me
has no affect
find your place in this world
before you start
judging mine
for most of my life
I was the
lonely
creative
loner
I didn’t have many friends
today
I still don’t have many friends
I just have some
and some is good enough
for me
I used to envy others
the “popular” kids
and
“celebrity’s”
I wanted to be one so bad
because
I didn’t know I was beautiful
sure there are parts of me
that could be a bit prettier
but as a kid
you don’t see that
you don’t know the difference
I mean
I knew
I was different
a lot of people seemed
to think so to
even my parent’s think so
I guess as a kid
I did think
I was ugly
I wanted to be beautiful
like a fairy
or a mermaid
something magical
even as a kid
I wanted to
change
peoples lives for the better
create magic for them
or be magical for someone
I’d always work
on making
the people
who were going through
a tough times
lives better
you know?
I thought it was my gift
that
maybe I wasn’t human
maybe
I was mean’t to be something more
like I really did fall from heaven
and it was
my job to
take care
of everyone else
people
have promised me
that they would take care of me
but all they ever did was leave
my dad
could have bailed on us
sometimes
I wish he did
because
he’s pretty much walked out on me
I don’t mean as much to him
as I did
when he loved my mother
instead of hated her
I vowed
as a small child
as that poor
little
nine
year old
girl
that
I would be the opposite
of my parents
I guess some of my wants
and desires
have been pretty ugly too
I can be such a hypocrite
one day
I’ll think I’m the prettiest woman in the world
the next
I feel ugly
but I guess
everyone has those days huh?
we all think like that
it’s just nice to feel special sometimes
and have the foundation
of support
just to know
someone cares
is a fucking gift
and
I’m waiting for that
and
I know
that
I’ll get it
it will be mine in no time
he
will be
mine
you dont
really think about
being cared for and loved
as a kid
because your loved unconditionally
or your not really shown love at all
my childhood was half and half
I value it
as much as I can
but I had to grow up fast
I guess I just felt that
since
I was taking care
of so many
troubled souls
I saw my first
spirit
when I was five
my parents
were having a party
and
I had a dozen friends over
I went up to the attic
of our house
around
10 pm
and
there she was
a young maid
around sixteen
and for a five year old
that’s fucking huge
she tried to talk to me
but just stuck out her hand
and me and one of my other
friends
went down stairs screaming
most of my other friends didn’t believe me
out of the ones
who were there
then a few years later
when we
were going to free
the spirit
a lady brought a picture
of the girl
and
I told my mom that
I recognized her
that’s when
my mom
knew
I was different
I stopped
trying to fit in
when I was a junior in high school
I started to accept the fact that
I was different
as vain as it sounds
a lot of the time
I think that I’m much more intelligent and wiser
then people my age
more life lessons and such
I wouldn’t say that that’s wrong either
although
I’m sure
somewhere
there are
more intelligent wiser
people
but I like talking with
people who are older then me
it’s always been hard to talk to people my age
because they don’t really understand
but
I finally met someone
who is
he is
and it surprises me
that it took me so long
to meet him
I love hearing what he knows about the world
it’s one of my favorite things
he is my favorite
if
I could bring two things to a desert island
I’d bring him
and a four year supply of Twinkies
hopefully he’d bring the other thing’s we need
haha
I’m a more relaxed person now
at least
when I want to be
lately
I haven’t been able to stop
writing
just the feeling
of the keyboard under neath my fingers and clicking
it just helps
with this waiting thing
because
I know he reads these
my words
he reads
one of my ways of expressing feeling
nobody’s suppose
to really care about this
about my life
or my writing
but
obviously
a lot of you do
and its
it
touches my heart
I could cry of happiness
that one of my talents
is appreciated
no boyfriend
I have ever had
has had the balls to read
everything I write
even the damn love notes
so
I hope that when you are
in a relationship with me
or even now
that you
appreciate
every sweet word
that I have written for you
from poem
to blog post
and to ukulele cover songs
these things mean
that you are
special to me
We’ll Play Hide & Seek To Turn This Around
You know sometimes I wish I was prettier, more beautiful, you name it
It may be hard to believe but it can be tough for me to be happy
I don’t set standards either, at least not anymore.
loving others is what makes me happy, its always about the love, looking back I realize I give a lot of it. Even to those who don’t deserve it.
Maybe I do ask for too much. Maybe I ask for too much in return.
But aren’t humans suppose to give love for love? isn’t it like, “I give you my heart and you give me yours”? or is that wrong?
I’m not sure if I know how love actually works but I think its the most beautiful thing in the world.
Am I going to end up an old maid? what’s going to happen to me if it never appears? Will I die young because of it?
I just want small simple things, like, tons of kisses, passionate ones, a stupid song, romantic things even if they are cheesy really, to go camping under the stars, jump into a lake with nothing on together, sit by the fire and have deep conversations, be there when I cry, hold me tight, lay with me, that’s all really..
is that too much?
it is too much if I want someone to stay? is that why they leave?
It must be.
It’s gotta be.
I feel like everyone is just falling in love and finding the perfect person, the one who will stay and I’m just here, getting screwed over and over without consent.
I don’t know what I deserve, that could be part of the problem. I know how I want to be treated but I don’t know what I deserve.
I was put here to give to others. Lately I’ve been out of the loop of Mother Nature, she hasn’t spoken to me in a long time. I don’t know why. I haven’t done anything wrong. Have I? I hope not. I guess the cold has frozen our connection or something.
Above all else I’m her daughter. She’s been here for me when no one else has. Now she’s not here at all, at least not yet to tell me what to do or at least give advice. Fuck it.
Maybe I am better off dead, better off with wings on my shoulders.
I’ve never felt human so whats the point?
I used to think I was better off on the street, sometimes I still think that, that maybe I’ll fit in with people who have less then me because I feel like I have less, even so my house(s) don’t feel like my houses, they are just buildings. Empty, empty buildings that are cold and dark.
I have tried to run away 7 times. Seven. I only got around a block or two away.
I never carry anything with me, I just run.
I run because it makes me feel less alone, more human, brings my mind to ease, nothing/ no one can hurt me. Those are the reasons why I do it.
Have I ever told you that I used to be in my own little world? I did, I used to be like Alice in Wonderland.. I never listened to anyone. I daydreamed all the time, I was convinced that everyone adored me.
None of that was true. Ever. No prince charming is ever going to just pick me up and save me, that’s not how the world works. Ever.
On Christmas or my birthday, I don’t ask for much, just things that I need and I don’t even care if they don’t get me anything. I give meaningful gifts, like artwork or something yummy that they like. That’s all.
I used to think I was better off being a stripper or a porn star but I could never do any of that. Although it would give me a chance to be someone’s muse for a change and I like being naked but that just isn’t really an option for me.
I feel like my whole entire body has just gotten hit with something, I’m not going to cry though. No. I’m so awake, I’m not sure if I should sleep.
I tried counting my birthmarks today. I wish I knew how many I had, then I could tell you all hah but then again that might be a bit crazy don’t you think?
You know I have this interesting birthmark on my shoulder, it looks a bit like a star, I’m not sure, maybe wings or a flower. Yeah. I’ve got a small one under me left eye too. When I was in plays the make up lady’s thought it was eyeliner so they would always try and brush it away till they realized “oh thats a birthmark!” haha
I used to wear a whole lot of make up. I don’t anymore. I hardly wear any and eyeliner is not my friend.
You know what makes me feel special? you really want to know? Right when I get out of the shower, when people look me right in the eye when they talk and keep their gaze, when I’m laying on a bed naked and being stared at, when I push my hair away from my face, When someone holds me and cannot bring themselves to let go, when someones hands are going through my hair, when I can run to someone and they pick me up and kiss me, when someones arms are holding me from behind and they whisper in my ear. Those are what make me feel special.
I haven’t been feeling like that at all.
You think you can make me feel special? by all means try.
If you can’t make me feel that way then I’m not special and I never will be.