Bruised fingernails
A strain in the heart
No light in the dark
Eyes tired like
the open sea
I wonder if
He even
Misses me.
Sweatpants
Black and white
Comfy but confused
Of the fight
Why do so many men
Have to be right?
Tag Archives: tired
You Would Know
She sat with her tea
not coffee
and
waited for the
sun to appear
a great
pain in her chest
she looked like
quite a mess
but she had
nothing to fear
for fallen
angels
look just like
you and me
we sit and sip
on our tea
our eyes weak
and weary
if your anything
like me
you’ll just laugh
at yourself
to make your face
happy
with a smile
like no ones ever seen
its hard to be
someone like me
so full of adventure
and dreams
if I had a child
I’d sing it to sleep
if you’d listen to who I say I am
and tried to understand
you’d know
I’m not like the rest
you’d know
it’s easy to take my hand
but even harder to let me go
You’d know
My Sweetie
You
I shall always love
You healed me
when I was
shoved
and broken to pieces
you’re different then he is
please don’t ask me to choose
only one of you
can catch my heart
and hold it tightly
to your own
so I will
never be alone
if it is me
you must have
with your heart
and soul
let me know
it’s been long enough already
stop wasting
our precious time
and let me
make you mine
Midnight Reflection
It’s hard to sleep
When you’ve had
Nothing to eat
Because time
Makes you tired
And you feel as if
You’ll never get
What you desire
A kiss
Some signs of love
No one can tell
Not even from above
Your heart is cracked
But your eyes cannot weep
All you want is to
Lie down and sleep
But you shiver
Wishing everything
Was clearer
You can’t be a mermaid
They say
You can’t be a goddess
Like you pray
Your just a silly human
Who had a choice
To save another
Or love a boy
Your heart thought
It would be rewarded
With joy
But so many men
Have treated you like
A windup toy
No recollection
Of giving you up
Just that simple touch
Of not being enough
You’ve cried enough tears
Why should you cry now?
When it could have been
Your life taken
And hers spared
Oh all the memories
That were shared
2PM
Tired thoughts
Shorts and socks
No inspiration
Nope
Not a lot
Nice People
Tired eyes
So sick
Of people
And their lies
Are you
Going
To be nice
And speak
The truth
In everything
You do
Dream
Tired eyes
No words
Only
Thinking
Of the
Dream
I had
Last night
Good Things Are About to Rain
Eyes tired
head spinning
thoughts racing
which one will win?
she cannot wait
for the goodness
to begin
nervous she is
that
things could not work out
again
and disappointment
will stay in her head
but the mists
of good things
are about to rain
all over you
time
shall not
take as long
as you think
just smile
and relax
things will reveal themselves
without much of you
to ask
keep your head up
do not worry
time will scurry
across the floor
and soon
a new door
will open
you’ll be drinking
sweet
alcohol in no time
Ocean Eyes
Why is it that
when I always cry
or feel unbelievably sad
there is really no one here to hold me?
only twice in my life
has someone held me
while I cried like this
and I don’t even know if he cares about me anymore
to be honest
I don’t know who cares about me anymore
maybe I’m just saying that
because I feel incredibly sad
and useless
and ugly
and all these negative emotions
but my heart
really needs these tears right now
My World Will Stop Spinning & That’s Just The Beginning
I don’t know what to write about
maybe it’s lack of sleep
I don’t know
Today I just feel like
whatever comes out of my mouth may sound completely wrong or offensive
and I know I’m not really like that
I don’t say things like that to people
especially people who care about what I have to say
I haven’t written a story in who knows how long
I don’t know if I want what I wanted
I have thought about it a bit
but clearly not enough
since I’m still puzzled about it
I guess I feel like I need some sort of sign
not quite sure what kind of sign
I’d rather not talk and feel like I’m saying things that are wrong
I’m done with that hurt shit and being disrespected
I have put up with it enough
I do want him to stay
I’d just like to be treated differently I guess
I mean I spoke up and told him everything
right after he hurt me
I don’t like fighting, I like small arguments, that’s the only sliver of drama I like and can put up with, gossip, taking trash about people and insulting isn’t for me, I tend to avoid people like that.
When I really admire and care about someone I stay no matter what. I’ve always been the stupid girl who stays. I had to have help to get out of my abusive relationship. I don’t leave all that easily. I don’t want to leave but if I keep bring treated like this, I just might.
I can’t believe that he just doesn’t understand how much I care and admire him. I’ve always been here. Always. Even when I have been insulted and have had things assumed about me. I have been here. Putting him before me the entire time. How can you still not see that?
I could never hurt him. NEVER. EVER. I am too kind and caring to ever hurt anyone on purpose. It would kill me honestly, it would, especially if I hurt him, god damn, I could never forgive myself.
I trust him now, I do trust that he will stay, that he want’s to stay. He needs to trust me though, trust that I won’t hurt him, I’m not out to get him or chasing after him or thinking he’s some god damn prize. I did want to be his last love, believe me I did. I just don’t know anymore.
I can’t be with someone who hurts me all the time and who doesn’t listen. You know he reminds me a lot of the old me. I used to be act just like he did whenever someone tried to get close to me. I guess I realize now that pushing people away hurts them. I don’t think I’m going to do that anymore.
I’d like to someday be some form of importance to him. I’d give up anything and give anything for that. To be someone who makes him happy as much as possible. It doesn’t matter to me what I am, I’d just like to be a big part of his life. Have him care about me just as much as I care about him.
If I could give him the world, I would. I’ve always just wanted to be part of the reason he smiles. We aren’t all that different. Not in my eyes. We don’t have 100% in common but hey that’s always good right? I don’t like having 100% in common with people anyway, it just get’s boring.
When he and I talk to each other I do feel like I’ve known him before. We have this connection that I’ve never had with anyone else. Not this close at least. He knows me so well sometimes. I feel like I just know him all the time.
You should see what he can create. It’s seriously mind blowing. He’s an artist, like a real genuine artist. His inventions are insanely cool. He’s kind and caring too, a bit rough on the edges when he want’s to be but then again sometimes I can be like that too. He’s very wise and intelligent, honestly when I talk to him it’s so much easier then it is to talk to anyone else. He does understand. I am attracted to him, like really attracted to him, I may have only seen pictures but I feel like I have seen him before, only, I’m not sure where. Is it a good idea for me to describe to you every part of him I find attractive? probably not, so I won’t. That would be a bit too much information to share on here.
I’m not going to say anything negative about him, I’ve already said enough about him not being able to see me and how I care and have been here, complaining about things is stupid so I’m not going to. I do not think he is an idiot for not seeing me,seeing that I’ve been here all along, that I care & admire him, I’ve been there before but I ended up seeing the guy who was there all along. I’m not going to tell that story though.
I’m done talking about ex boyfriends. Past is past, don’t need to talk about it anymore hah.
This week I’ll most likely be spending more time in the water. THANK GOD. I’ll be going to my favorite lake on Thursday, spend a lot of time there. Draw, listen to music, swim, probably get some ice cream.
I have been drinking tea non stop today. I’m not joking. I have this huge mug that I got for Christmas and I’ve had two different types of tea today. So like two cups is about as much as three big tall glasses of water..
I’m so bored and lonely. WTF.
Well I guess I’m going to go now before I say something wrong.
By ya’ll