Before you read this. I’d like you to take some time and watch this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTYrFAElzww
It will only take 3 minutes and ten seconds, I’m sure you can sacrifice that.
I appreciate it, thanks so much.
Now I’m sure this letter will make more sense.
Dear Future Lover, Boyfriend, Husband, Best Friend, Sweetheart, The Man Who Will Hold/Keep My Heart Forever..
I don’t know if we have ever met. I don’t know if you are in my life now or if your meant to show up years later. I don’t know if you even exist but maybe this letter will pick up the pace, maybe god will shine a light on both of us and you’ll find me, you will hear my call so here let me tell you what I do know..
I know that you are not perfect but to me you always will be. I know that you have insecurities, I know that’s why you don’t talk about yourself as much because whenever you talk about yourself you feel like it’s all Ego showing but you don’t know how beautiful it is to hear that voice of honey and sunshine escape your pink lips. I know that’ll be why I ask you to call me instead of text. I know just hearing you say my name it’ll be like your singing to me and maybe you will sing to me. I hope you do. I hope I make you that happy.
I know that you’ll think I’m silly because I’ll say humorous or awkward things to you and you’ll laugh at me. Your laugh is like a musical ya know? it’ll just make me want to laugh even more then usual and often you and I will have days of just laying on the kitchen floor almost peeing in our pants because we both said stupid funny things or while I was cooking I threw flour in your face. Something like that.
I know that when I look into those eyes of yours that my cheeks will turn pink or red even. I’ll forget what I was going to say when you look at me and the same thing will happen to you. You’ll forget words but what words you’ll say to me will leave such a mark. We will always go back to old conversations, never really ending a conversation or actually saying goodbye. You will ask question’s I’ve never really thought of before, and each time I answer with more words then usual you will listen and understand. Yes, arguments are bound to happen and there will be times when you get angry and I cry because of your anger. I might even try to run sometimes but you will always be here. You will remind me over and over how much I am cared for and loved. You will teach me things and hold me when I cry, even if you can’t find any time to just hold me you will do the best you can.
You’re not allowed to have better hair then I do but you can have longer hah. When we kiss or have sex or just lay together naked, you and I will do this thing where I run my fingers through your hair and kiss you and you pretty much cup my face. You’ll like it haha.
I really wish I knew who you were..
If you don’t have a beard of some facial hair of some kind then I’m sorry I’ll be an old maid if I have too.. you gotta have facial hair baby. I’m obsessed. I’m pretty sure you’ll be a nerd hopefully or a metal-head or a hippie, whichever category you want. I really hope your not a “hipster”.. I don’t like modern guys, my dream Disney prince is Tarzan and the man wears a loin cloth and was raised by gorilla’s..
Hmmm.. You won’t think I’m crazy, in fact you’ll find me just as fascinating as I find you. We won’t be like couples in the movies. The things we do will consist of camping, swimming, skiiing, traveling, going to movies, going out to dinner, both of us cooking dinner, having paint fights, playing paint twister, going to a cabin, hiking and a bunch of other amazing billion things I’ve got in mind.. babe, we won’t have 100% in common it’ll be more like 75% or 80% because I really don’t mind arguments or passionate debates.
You’ll probably believe in God, I really hope you do. I bet I’m drawn to your passions. Every last one of them. Please don’t be a slob, pick up after yourself, it’s not like you’ve gotta clean everything until it shines. If you’ve got an addictions.. like your a drug addict or you drink too much or you smoke, I’m not going to like it. It’ll hurt me just as much if not more then it hurts you. I won’t tell you right away that it bugs me and I won’t ask you to stop but your privileges for kissing me will be few if I can taste or smell any of that on you..
I will write poetry, paint, sing all because of you. You will inspire me. You do inspire me. I’m a big romantic. I take love and crushes and feelings seriously. I know on the outside you’ll appear pretty insensitive to things and people but I know that heart of yours is just as big as mine. When you realize you love me, you won’t be able to stop saying it. You won’t be able to sleep. Even when we move in together you’ll sometimes watch me sleep. You’ll love kissing me too and holding my hand but you wont like to do much of it in public until after we are married.
I know I’ll be more then happy to take your shorter last name instead of my incerdiably long one…
I don’t know when we will be put together..
I don’t know if you’ll even enjoy my poetry and stories and art..
but I know I’ll always love you wherever, whoever you are
Please find me when you can
I’ve been doing a lot to try and find you or have you find me
but I’ll stop trying so much now
just appear when you are ready
I’d appricate it if it was soon
or in a short while
I love you, I love you, I love you
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you for being exactly who you are
I love you, I love you, I love you
I’ll see you later
Sincerely,
Zoe, the love of your life and only wife you’ll ever have
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOX