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Unexplainable Theory

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Men often take
What is
Pure
For granted
Because they know
They can’t have it
He brought
Meaning
Into my life
And then
Ran away
What more did I
Have to say?
How can you
Be a man of god
When you
Won’t even open
Your own heart?
How much more
Of me
Must I let you
Pick apart?
I know
Of isolation
I know
We’ve got
That in common
Too
But how can you
Not see the angel
In front of you?
All I wanted
Was to be there
For you
Everything
I said
Was true
You even
Crawled on
Your knees
When I ignored you
Open up your eyes
Let yourself feel
What is inside

Make You Happy

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I am
Made of
Stars
And
Galaxy’s
From afar
But do you see it?
Could my universe
Be what
God
Is trying
To tell you
To look into?
This is a chance
Of a lifetime
Not a waste of time
Break the wall
Between us
Give me
Answers
I know
I make
Your heart
Beat faster
God brought us
Together
So lets make the
Most of it
Loose the confusion
Strengthen
The compassion
Your meant
To be something
To me
Not an illusion
Or some kind of
Intrusion
You know as well as I
So please
Prove something to me
Don’t be shy
I know you’ve gained
Respect for me
But what I don’t think
You realize
Is that I
Hold the
Key
And I could make you
Happy
If only
You’d let me

I Was Chased

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You were chased
Again
You did
Nothing
To these
Creatures
And
You were chased
You ran
From
These
Creatures
As they come up
Behind you
Trying to
Drag you back
To the past
You were chased
And all you wanted
Was to simply
Bring up
A paper plate
So you can eat
Dinner
And they chased you
God didn’t stop them
All he did was tell you
To run
Maybe he took care of it
Maybe they are plotting something
For you to disappear
Either way
You were chased
And you cannot
Tell a soul
Of your experience

Star Made Muse with Sweetness in Her Eyes, Flowers in Her Hair, Such a Lovely Surprise

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She was made of flowers
Not those made up
Of
Purples and pinks
But of golds
And yellows
Like the daisies
That fall from the sky
She could
Never lie
Though she was
Often confused
Being a muse
And all
She still managed
To pick
Herself up
When she would
Fall
She is a woman
Who will shed
No tears
For a lost love
Her faith is in
The man above
He has her heart
Her trust
And he gives her
Much bravery
She is a daughter
Of the constellations
A dreamer of peace
A lover of sex
And a lady of class
To be in her life
Is a privilege
Not a curse
To be cast
She is made of sweetness
And cherry pie
Once you look into her eyes
You’ll see the light
Trust me
You will think of her
Every night

To The Man Who Will Keep My Heart Forever

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Before you read this. I’d like you to take some time and watch this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTYrFAElzww 

It will only take 3 minutes and ten seconds, I’m sure you can sacrifice that. 

I appreciate it, thanks so much. 

Now I’m sure this letter will make more sense. 

Dear Future Lover, Boyfriend, Husband, Best Friend, Sweetheart, The Man Who Will Hold/Keep My Heart Forever.. 

I don’t know if we have ever met. I don’t know if you are in my life now or if your meant to show up years later. I don’t know if you even exist but maybe this letter will pick up the pace, maybe god will shine a light on both of us and you’ll find me, you will hear my call so here let me tell you what I do know.. 

I know that you are not perfect but to me you always will be. I know that you have insecurities, I know that’s why you don’t talk about yourself as much because whenever you talk about yourself you feel like it’s all Ego showing but you don’t know how beautiful it is to hear that voice of honey and sunshine escape your pink lips. I know that’ll be why I ask you to call me instead of text. I know just hearing you say my name it’ll be like your singing to me and maybe you will sing to me. I hope you do. I hope I make you that happy. 

I know that you’ll think I’m silly because I’ll say humorous or awkward things to you and you’ll laugh at me. Your laugh is like a musical ya know? it’ll just make me want to laugh even more then usual and often you and I will have days of just laying on the kitchen floor almost peeing in our pants because we both said stupid funny things or while I was cooking I threw flour in your face. Something like that. 

I know that when I look into those eyes of yours that my cheeks will turn pink or red even. I’ll forget what I was going to say when you look at me and the same thing will happen to you. You’ll forget words but what words you’ll say to me will leave such a mark. We will always go back to old conversations, never really ending a conversation or actually saying goodbye. You will ask question’s I’ve never really thought of before, and each time I answer with more words then usual you will listen and understand. Yes, arguments are bound to happen and there will be times when you get angry and I cry because of your anger. I might even try to run sometimes but you will always be here. You will remind me over and over how much I am cared for and loved. You will teach me things and hold me when I cry, even if you can’t find any time to just hold me you will do the best you can. 

You’re not allowed to have better hair then I do but you can have longer hah. When we kiss or have sex or just lay together naked, you and I will do this thing where I run my fingers through your hair and kiss you and you pretty much cup my face. You’ll like it haha. 

 I really wish I knew who you were.. 

If you don’t have a beard of some facial hair of some kind then I’m sorry I’ll be an old maid if I have too.. you gotta have facial hair baby. I’m obsessed. I’m pretty sure you’ll be a nerd hopefully or a metal-head or a hippie, whichever category you want. I really hope your not a “hipster”.. I don’t like modern guys, my dream Disney prince is Tarzan and the man wears a loin cloth and was raised by gorilla’s.. 

Hmmm.. You won’t think I’m crazy, in fact you’ll find me just as fascinating as I find you. We won’t be like couples in the movies. The things we do will consist of camping, swimming, skiiing, traveling, going to movies, going out to dinner, both of us cooking dinner, having paint fights, playing paint twister, going to a cabin, hiking and a bunch of other amazing billion things I’ve got in mind.. babe, we won’t have 100% in common it’ll be more like 75% or 80% because I really don’t mind arguments or passionate debates. 

You’ll probably believe in God, I really hope you do. I bet I’m drawn to your passions. Every last one of them. Please don’t be a slob, pick up after yourself, it’s not like you’ve gotta clean everything until it shines. If you’ve got an addictions.. like your a drug addict or you drink too much or you smoke, I’m not going to like it. It’ll hurt me just as much if not more then it hurts you. I won’t tell you right away that it bugs me and I won’t ask you to stop but your privileges for kissing me will be few if I can taste or smell any of that on you..

I will write poetry, paint, sing all because of you. You will inspire me. You do inspire me. I’m a big romantic. I take love and crushes and feelings seriously. I know on the outside you’ll appear pretty insensitive to things and people but I know that heart of yours is just as big as mine. When you realize you love me, you won’t be able to stop saying it. You won’t be able to sleep. Even when we move in together you’ll sometimes watch me sleep. You’ll love kissing me too and holding my hand but you wont like to do much of it in public until after we are married. 

I know I’ll be more then happy to take your shorter last name instead of my incerdiably long one… 

I don’t know when we will be put together.. 

I don’t know if you’ll even enjoy my poetry and stories and art.. 

but I know I’ll always love you wherever, whoever you are 

Please find me when you can 

I’ve been doing a lot to try and find you or have you find me 

but I’ll stop trying so much now 

just appear when you are ready 

I’d appricate it if it was soon 

or in a short while 

I love you, I love you, I love you 

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you for being exactly who you are

I love you, I love you, I love you

I’ll see you later 

Sincerely,

Zoe, the love of your life and only wife you’ll ever have

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOX  

 

 

 

You Stay Johanna, The Way I Dreamed You Were,

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Today I took public transportation home

from work

I had my headphones in

but the music wasn’t exactly that loud

since I sort of keep it at a good volume

a mother got on the bus

with her beautiful little blonde girls

then as everyone else got on

there was this woman

who was sitting near the front of the bus

touching the wall with one hand

she was talking to it I think

or something she saw

that everyone else couldn’t

then like any other human

I made small assumptions

like

“she’s probably done a lot of drugs”

“She probably lives on the street”

but something told me none of those could be true

something told me

it was wrong to think that way about her

about anyone

I felt she was no different then I

just because I couldn’t see what she was seeing

doesn’t mean it wasn’t there

get it?

I don’t think she is crazy

doctors diagnose things to gain money

not one of us is normal

or even close to normal

I don’t mind labels much anymore

but stereotypes and assumptions

I cannot stand

I do notice every little detail

and I do think too much

when I feel I must

I love noticing things other humans don’t

I’m aware that some think I’m unintelligent

but I read books

I learn from others

I say things

hoping they wont blow up in my face

I put myself out there

in hope that I can make an impact

on someone else’s life

I don’t care if you weren’t looking for me

I don’t care if your not interested

I will leave my mark on you

or on your life

I did not pity this woman on the bus

I had half a mind to go up and ask her who she’s talking too

but I felt it would be rude of me to interrupt her conversation

I think she’s like me

she may feel human (which I often don’t)

but I think her gifts are a bit more advanced then mine

I’ve only ever seen ghosts during or after sundown/sunset

I know people were looking at her with disgust or like she’s insane

I’ve gotten looks like that most of my life

the whole

“Your too different”

I’d like to feel less alone

I’m not saying I’m “lonely”

lonely means I’m sad I’m alone

I just said that

I’d like to feel less alone

I’d like to have one human being who doesn’t think I’m crazy

I know God doesn’t think I’m crazy

the lord gave me these gifts because he knew

that I am strong and that I’d get stronger

I’d like a companion

of some sort

friend, best friend, boyfriend, lover

just give me one person

who won’t judge me right away

or assume things about who I am based off my actions

or my looks

I want honesty

and loyalty

and passion

but above all

I would like care

and if its not too much to ask

maybe a love of some kind

Please let them not talk about themselves all the time

I know sometimes I talk about myself

but that’s only because

I want to know them

so I tell them about myself

no more assholes okay God

no more jerks who just want me for my body

no more men with big egos who care more about themselves then anyone else

no more men who worry about money in their pockets

no more men who don’t make time for themselves or anyone else

you give me humans who will always stay

no matter how hard life gets for us

and with that

my thoughts have trailed off yet again

you’ll most likely read my thoughts in the next post