Fairytales are over
They all die
And go to
Hell
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Invisible
What if
I told you
“I do not exist”
Would you
Believe me
In all of
Your bliss?
Yet I still
Ache for
Your kiss
Assholes
Aren’t hard
To find
And I found out
You were in time
Not ever
Going to be
Mine
Blessed be Depressed
She thinks
She’s superwoman
Fixing everything
That she can
An unfortunate event
Comes knocking
The loss
Of a man
Who wasn’t yet
A friend
Breaks her sensitive
Heart
Who is here?
Who really cares
About her?
Friends have gone
Dating has been
All wrong
Please give my heart
A hug
So as to stop
The bleeding
Tell me more
About the
Book your reading
Sure Why Not
Finding out where you belong is hard
But finding out who you belong with is harder, I’m not saying this is the person you spend the rest of your life with, I’m saying these are the people who show the most love, support and respect to you.
For me that’s been hard to find and I guess I should stop looking because I really don’t give a fuck anymore if people care about me or not. I’m always going to be alone. I don’t need people to say shit about me and think that they know me better because they fucking don’t and the more god damn ego that is spread around this god forsaken world the more bad shit keeps happening. So you can be goddamn sure that I’m done with that shit. I’m done with guys just wanting me for sex and friends staying for a short amount of time. I was made for greatness. I’m meant to go places and put myself first. I don’t need anybody. I’m so sick of guys who pretend to be what they really aren’t and then I get hurt in the end. I try really hard to believe in the good in everyone. I runaway from a lot of problems too but you don’t see me crying. I’ve said this before in a poem and I’ll say it again, just because you saw me naked doesn’t mean you know everything about me. I may scare you because of how much I know and how much you’ve told me about yourself and how little of things you know about me but that gives you no right to accuse me and say that you think you know me better then I do. Fuck you. I don’t give a damn about the past and the fact that you brought that up is disgusting, it shows I’m the one more on track and more in love with myself then you are of yourself. I’m never putting someone else’s needs before my own now, that is the last straw. I’m fucking finished. And you know what? You’ll regret it just like the rest of them and you’ll either come crawling back or you’ll never talk to me again but think of me often. In this case it’ll probably be both, you still feel guilt for what happened between us in the past and you like me so much it scares you. So make your god damn decision either way I’m done. I told you I’m not easy.
Best Thing You’ll Never Have
I strongly dislike
those moments
when you feel like
your entire world
is falling apart
I can’t tell you
how many bloody times
I have felt like that
honestly
whenever I have tried to make
something work
with someone who I’m
TRYING
keyword here
trying
to get to know
they manage to
take something small
and negative about me
and blow it the fuck up in my face
and you call me a drama queen?
like seriously..
nice guys don’t do shit like that
and to be honest
if you tell me
and give me the impression
that you’re a “gentleman”
I will be naive enough to believe you
So I’ve decided
to put any thing about relationships
completely out of my head
it’s just for the best
and if something
happens with someone great
but in the meantime
I’ll show them
all
how badly
they screwed up
Don’t Know Who You Are But I’m With You.
You know
I don’t know what got me to think
I’m an outsider to this world
but as I get older it does make sense
no ones really tried to understand
and even if they say that they do
they don’t
Yeah, sometimes I make my life harder
then it should be
Yes, I’m aware of my beauty
but what I dislike the most is being judged
and having others assume things of me
all because of the way I look
I’m overly sensitive
but I really don’t think
I desire that much
Sure
I’ve got multiple talents
I do everything artistic
literally I do
I’m just not a very good dancer
I have insecurities
I’ve got secrets no one knows
I’ve actually got a lot of those
but I’m not afraid to say what I think and feel
I do more things for people
and often when I do
I don’t get much of a thank you from anyone
Somehow I always seem to be treated like a doormat
when I opened up to my class once while we talked about relationships
a girl said to me “but your so sweet!!”
and she’s right
I’ve never asked for anything from the people I’ve been nice to either
I’m used to disappointment in relationships
and men only wanting me for one reason
the lust in their hearts
not actual love in their hearts
which I’ve dreamed of my whole life
ever since I was seven years old
and the greatest love story of my life
fell to pieces
the love of my parents
who now hate each other
I vowed I could never do that
I’d never get a divorce
I’d never fall out of love
so I fell for small gestures others did for me
or tiny glances
meaningless things to others
I took and made meaningful to me
I still hear that male voice saying “I love you”
and I realize that it’s god saying he loves me
but its more then one voice now
two different voices
I’m sure it’s not Jesus
since I know what he sounds like
but I assume its a call
from whoever is meant to have my heart
as faint as it may be
I still can hear it
I still want wings
more then anything
more then a lover to call my own
more then love itself
or fitting in
I wanna fly away
I don’t care if I fall too close to the sun
and plunge into the sea
I want wings
How come other people get held when they cry?
but anyone who has held me while I cried left?…
anyone who said they loved me.. left
any guy really
it’s like they convinced me they loved me and never meant it
I don’t want to be around anyone tomorrow
I want a week of isolation
Heavens Door
Take me away
From the living
Let me walk among the dead
I want to be done with hope
With love
With fear
Today I wasn’t
Good enough
For anybody
I made two mistakes
Got yelled at for one
And can’t sleep
From words I heard
For the other
Let me drown
In the deepest of seas
Have
No one
Come after me
I still want my wings
More then anything
God you know
I don’t belong here
I don’t fit in
You know I’ve got
No home to live in
I’m too different and you know it
No ones willing to understand
Just take me home
Let me hold your hand
Please I beg you
I’m on my knees
You’ve heard me plead
Just like this before
Now kill me
And bring me to heavens door
I Think I’m Starting Over.
I think being a princess is overrated
I think woman still don’t have enough rights
I think men who think they know everything don’t know a damn thing at all
I think that snow can be a pain the ass unless you play in it
as in making a snow man
I think I’ve changed
I think outbursts wont happen anymore
since I’ve learned to control them
I think I’ve started to really stick up for myself
I think
even though
I’ve been bitter towards love recently
I’m giving up at that attitude towards it
and even though
I don’t have much hope
it’s really stupid to not think
someone is out there for me
who will love me
or someone is already in my life
its just a matter of time
but I don’t need a boyfriend
or anything like that
I don’t
you can call me selfish all you want
for being independent
but I’m telling you right now
that is just fucked up to say anything that like
I’m not selfish for providing and working hard for myself
I don’t always have to think about other people
I’ve been thinking about other people since I was seven years old
do you have any idea how many years that is until now?
that is
THIRTEEN YEARS
of thinking about OTHERS
and not doing the thing that was best for me
which is thinking about me
and getting shit done
and for gods sake getting rid of those emotional outbursts
that hurt so many people around me
but above all hurt me
I’m fucking done hurting myself
and I’m done with just giving people what they want from me
none of that is allowed to happen
I shouldn’t even be talking about the outbursts because it’s in the past
and I’m starting over
She Promises
What can
One do
Once the pain
Is too much to bare?
Shall she let him go
With all the memories
All that are there
“No more
Chances
This time”
She promises
“I’m done with
People
From my past
Especially
If they are an ass”
You Are Different
You are not
Responsible
For her scars
You cannot heal
What has been done
The bruises
That lay on her skin
Are not far
They do not
Define
Who you are
The blacks
Blues
And purples
No reflection
But if
You caused
Her to feel
Hurt
In her heart
I encourage you
To apologize
To prove that
You’re different
Than other guys